June 2010
17 posts
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Observed and Earthen
Even today’s memories recede
Still undefined, my concept of time
With a thousand wrists to offer consolation
These bulkheads have sworn to levy the waves of ignorance
To return the black tides of curiosity to depths
Suffocating with them I lie and tread under the many fathoms of the dark
No time flows on
Not a day passes by
-EJH
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Sensory Corrosion
I exchange one gas for another
Mostly puzzled at the need for such
Restless and fueled by transparent elixirs of consensual intentions
A sightless gerbil running on a crooked wheel
Bending toward infinity
Without a home
No place or desire to lie my weary head
I just walk
-EJH
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Gelatin
Bludgeoning migraines
Nerve-endings enduring the many casualties of frantic friendly fire
Though I strap on my slow release flak jacket
My own weapons still turn on me
And my shields to the sky shun analysis
To you but confections and a splint for I
-EJH
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Peristaltis
Tingling with an aura of oncoming convulsions
Tumbling toward the gaping jaws
Black mandibles of actuality unhinged
Ingesting my alloyed expectations and dreams
Mass producing a delicate imperfection
This cookie-cutter for replica souls
-EJH
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Syncopated
I am blacking out and leaving this place
Wrapping myself in sheets
Soft sheets of hypoxia
Burning from the surface to the core with perdition
Blunt trauma to my conscience
Rolling in blurry incoherence and lucidity
Imaginary breaths taken from the tailpipe of better judgement
Breathing the exhaust of words left unspoken
Words written but crumpled
From veins severed and clotted with...
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Avarice
I have taken countless footsteps that I have long forgotten
I have breathed and blinked and never remembered
Amazing; that something so fundamental is so often taken for granted
This further proves the race of man to be an elaborate species of hedonistic swine
I may remember a succulent meal, or an aromatic scent
But never a breath of our aerial sustenance
Never the steps taken in my...
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Peregrination
Enveloped in billows of gaseous supposition
I am poised to wade this deluge of judgement
Observing the lavish attempts to antagonize me
Nothing quenches their undying thirst
Their thirst for a unanimous scapegoat
-EJH
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Pathogenic Sorrow
I’m convinced that I am composed of poison
The amount of pain I can cause by just speaking to someone convinces me
I feel like my presence alone gets inside people in the worst way
My bitterness and nihilist pessimism are virulently contagious
Even those who don’t feel the additional pain develop an allergy to my aura
It scares me to remember how empty and cold I really am
I too often...
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Complexity
I arrive at no benevolent crossroad
Attend no self-help seminar
Walk no coals of sacrifice
Bow before no graceful spiritual highness
I fear myself
I experience a phobia of instinct
Of invisible gears in my transmission
And I react on irrational response to that fear
Morality is a reformable word
-EJH
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Out of Time And Undermined
I am alone in the dark
My body playing spectator to a range of internal cinematic catastrophes
Scenes of nausea and night sweats
Reading the these scripts of side-effects
From the playwrights of convulsive tyranny
And authors of methods of action
My hands still shake
My own breath still burns in my nostrils
I am so sick
So secure in my melancholy
Sedated in the absence of sedatives
To...
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Slippery Slope
If only I did not lack the tinder
To ignite my internal pyre
Where I set my ego ablaze
I would never again become frostbitten from my own cold tears
Tears that barely left the corners of my jaded eyes
Salty escape pods to an alternate reality
-EJH
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Precipitate
In the black of the midnight rain
My skylights become drums for the storm
They speak in tongues of sobriety
Sounding the echoes of their poetic message in aquatic code
Playing a cadence to be transcribed into peaceful dreams
A sedative in the stale air of my dark corridor
Gravitating homeward falls liquid life
My nightmares dare not return during this serene serenade
Unaspirated words of...
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Chromatic Cure
I find my peace and balance in these orange tubes
These white-capped cylinders filled with bottled emotion
The life’s work of a merciful chemist
Distilled happiness
These orange shotgun shells that I fire into my throat
That blast an exit-wound in my subconscious
-EJH
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Stagnant Overture
Believe this if naught else
I have sounded the full depths of misery
Brandished
Branded with a scar of my past struggles in discordant obsessions
Infatuated with textures of emotional duel and dissarray
Lucid dreams of creators and gods alike
I stand feebly
Shakily pointing a single finger to the stricken sky
Its once blue mass cracked by mortal hands and iron wings
If a deity once held...
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Inaudible
I travel on foot tonight
Tracing my footsteps back to clandestine stability
The throbbing pains of biased neuronic misfires numbed by the cold
I find it difficult to conjure anything but the worst of myself
When no number of hands are held out to help
And my own cast me to the dimly lit depths of improvidence
I am a product of my environment
A flicker of ambition and vanity squelched out...
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Absent And Unwavering
Goodmorning evil end of inquiry.
Pleased to meet you, you dark suboordinate finale.
Twisted product of the disposal nature of a human life.
A frail and tattered seam on a crude veil of sadistic sourness.
A seasoning used far too liberally for my tongue.
Oh the countless thank you notes I would send to the conspirators of time and atrocity.
Hesitating not once to swallow the...
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Backlit
How infinite, my assortment of memory lapsed recollections. So vague, so unmoving. The puddles on the road reflect only black and white. No shutter speed, no aperture value could develop
This exposure that we stride upon.
And in the boundless dark-room we bathe in our only stop-solution.
-EJH
